My Back Story

THE BACK STORY

You're probably wondering why I've suddenly decided to write a blog on my mental health, and while all of a sudden I telling my story. If the last 7 months have taught me anything, it's that self-care is incredibly important and something, I really want to improve in myself.

In February 2020, I diagnosed myself with not only anxiety, but also self confidence. I had just found out someone was taking advantage of me in a big way. Safe to say, I didn't feel great about myself. It was a terrifying and life-changing experience. I knew I had to make changes to my life, I didn't want feel down all the time. At that point I want to change my well-being. I'm not suggesting this was the only thing that led to the situation I found myself in, but it was certainly a contributing factor. I saw someone post about depression and anxiety and it made me start to talk to someone. Also seeing all the images of Caroline Flack helped as well.

So I arranged an appointment with an counsellor and had a good talk. We decided I need a CBT counsellor and started looking but then lockdown started. I prefer to talk to someone in front of me instead of on a computer or telephone, so I haven't had much conselling since. I plan on doing it again in the coming  months though. The months of lockdown haven't been as bad I thought they would but I definitely had good and bad days. There is still work to do! Talking to someone and telling my parents have really helped and afterwards I felt much more freedom. It took some much pressure of me as well.

I know when someone mentions 'well-being' or 'self-care' your mind naturally conjures up images of people meditating in a park or popping on a face mask. The beauty of 'well-being' is that it is specific to an individual and it is therefore shaped entirely by the person dealing with the problems.

Things that have helped me overcome it so far is having a routine and if I have things to focus on it really does help. Being outside in the fresh air really does clear my mind which is why now I so happy I can play tennis again because for the time when I on the court it does seem to take my problems away for a bit.

So that my story so far but I am not fully in the right place mentally still. I will be telling you about things I been doing to help me and continuing to document my story to becoming a happier person and to achieving my goals in the long run!